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People need me and I'm angry that I'm not strong enough to be needed yet.

I want to be strong for them. I want to be there. I don't want to disapoint them.

...I don't want to disapoint myself...



Too late...

Apparently, personalized mint tins are an approptiate party favor for a bar or bat mitzvah.

Who knew?

I have taken up painting. It is beautiful.

Anyone who has a great need to express themselves but has no words to do it with, should do the same.

Yesterday I told my friend, Emily, that I am constantly teetering on a terrible emotional edge, just waiting, hoping I don't fall off the deep end. And she, my dear, dear friend, replied with,

"And that's why all of us are here, pulling you back."

I would surely be nothing without those that rescue me with their love, prayers, and support.

Earlier today my friend, Robb came up with this great quote:

"Let's do life today."

I can't think of a better challenge. Fortunately, he, Emily, and others are there to make sure I do .

Here's a little randomness:

So, girls playfully hit guys all the time, right? Usually accompanied with a smile, wink, and something like: "oh, you're such a jerk," or, "shame on you! I can't believe you said that!" or, "oh stop it, really now, don't be such a tease."

And guys hit other guys all the time too. You know, the slap on the butt at sporting events, the side punch to the bicep after a joke or congratulations, and the occasional wrestling match or straight up fist fight.

However, I also think that guys hit girls on a far too regular basis.

And unfortunately, as soon it happens, my respect for that guys drops a few notches, simply because it shows the lack of respect he has for the girl he's hitting. Even in jest, I just don't think it's appropriate and I don't think it's right. Not only is it morally and socially unacceptable, it's also just not smart! Guys often don't realize their own strength, and when the playfully hit a girl the same they would another guy, that girl could end up knocked over, or even with a bruise. It's true what they say: we're fragile! So seriously, if you're a guy and you're reading this, play nice, don't hit girls.

So maybe it's just me, but I so often find that it's at the times in my life when I feel most together, most attractive, and most confident, that I'm removed from the top of my game and tossed on the bottom of the list.

It never seems to take much time to go from enjoying the taste of compliments, to having to swallow a big chunk of humble pie - and it's never fun. Fortunately, the pie is much more filling, and seems to stick with you much better than the compliments, which never seem to satisfy for very long, and always leave you craving more. Besides, too many sweets are bad for you, and are a really good way to get emotionally out of shape, while having that good healthy dose of reality always does a body good. It's just too bad that sugar tastes better than honesty, and eating your words often leaves a bad taste in your mouth. Oh well, I suppose it's all a part of growing up and learning to take the good with the bad - but if you feel the need to cut me a slice, please remember: a spoonful or sugar always helps the medicine (or humble pie) go down.

1. When people interrupt me for stupid reasons while I'm practicing/playing the piano

2. When people step on the backs of my flip flops while walking behind me

3. When single guys talk incessently about their crush.

I love it when guys that have girlfriends talk about them, and how amazing they are, and how much they care for them - I just HATE it when a single guy is obsessed with a girl that he's not dating. In my mind, if she's so great, why don't you ask her out, and THEN tell me about it. And if she's not good enough to date, then I don't want to hear about her. And if you DID ask her out and she said no, then she probably wasn't that great, and I don't want to hear about your pity party. It's a lose/lose situation.

But ya know, it would be one thing if this poor devoted guy wouldn't shut up to his buddies about his devotee, but when he talks about her to his girls, that's just too much. I'm sorry, I just don't want to hear about how in love you are with a girl, even if I don't like you in that way at all. I don't want to hear about all the reasons she is so much better than me, even if I would never date you. (Although, the closer the friend is, and the higher I think of him, the more I don't want to hear about his crushes.) It's just annoying. Please be considerate to girls with poor self-esteem and keep your girl talk for your guy talks.